Yeah, so tonight was the Backstreet Boys concert. Yes, the one we've been waiting for since March. I was 15th row center with Leah. Anita and Jacqueline were 5th row. A few minutes into the show, Anita paid some guy $35 to switch him Row A for Row 5. Not first row, folks. ROW A...BEFORE first row. We decked ourselves out in hardcore-fan BSB stuff - the BSB bandanas, necklaces, and what not. While in McDonalds before the concert at Tinseltown Mall (which is very close to GM Place), we realized the entire McDonalds was full of BSB fans. Girls with "I Love You Nick" written on their faces, shiny glittery shirts, high heels, slutty halter tops and jackets with "Marry Me AJ" in masking tape on the back. Backstreet Boys fans have got to be the best people in the world, I swear, and Backstreet Boys concerts are the most amazing thing EVER. It was like we were all coming together, with a common bond and common love. When you meet another Backstreet Boys fan, it's like an instant connection. You're best friends, just like that.

I cannot even begin to describe tonight, but it was the best night of my entire life, I swear to god. I think my heart is going to beat out of my chest in about two seconds. I am so pumped with adrenaline that my hands are shaking. I'm typing so fast I cannot even see the words I'm typing. I've been screaming since 7pm and I can't stop, even though my voice is practically gone.

The show was so amazing. Thank you God for bringing BSB back to Vancouver again this year (they came already in February for the Black and Blue tour and scheduled Vancouver again because it had sold out so fast they felt bad that not everyone got to go). I wanted to go in February so badly, but nobody wanted to go with me and I didn't know Anita when tickets went on sale, so I never went. Thank you, thank you God for giving me a second chance to go, because I wouldn't be surprised if that was the last time they'll ever come to Vancouver.

I cried like, five times. They walked out on a suspended bridge that went right beside me. RIGHT BESIDE ME, I mean if I were standing on my chair and I was a tad taller I could have touched them. Brian looked right down at me while they sang "Time" and I screamed, "Brian I love you!!", and he smiled and nodded his head. They were so, so hot, so gorgeous. Oh my God.

And you thought the "Oh my God's" were coming to an end...well here's the good part.

After the show was over, Anita and Jacq met me back at my seat. AJ had thrown Anita his towel, waved at her, Brian looked at her and smiled and said hi, she talked to Krystal Harris, got pictures with Brian's wife who was sitting right in front of her. I was super jealous but we were all screaming and stuff so it didn't really matter. We were about half way to the car, when Anita realized she'd forgotten her jacket. So we went back. Anita went inside again and Jacq and I waited outside GM Place for a few minutes.

Anita came back about 10 minutes later and said that a security guard had told her to go to Gate 9 Security to pick it up. We had no idea where Gate 9 was and couldn't find it on any of the maps, so we took a crazy wild guess and just went up some random elevator where nobody was around. We got off on a floor, where a female security guard named Natasha was standing. She immediately asked us what we were doing, and we explained that we had lost a jacket and were told to go to Gate 9. Instead of telling us where it was, she took us there herself. I thought it was a little strange she kept saying things like, "Yeah, if you tried to get to Gate 9 the outside way you wouldn't be able to get through, for sure...it's crazy down there..." and stuff like that. At one point she almost led us outside to fend for ourselves, then decided to take us through the inside of GM Place. We were following her, and I realized that absolutely nobody was around besides security.

Soon, we went down the "South" Elevator and ended up at the mysterious Gate 9, and walked into a small lobby. Natasha turned to us and said, "Okay girls, whatever you do, don't scream...". My heart starting pounding right then, and I nudged Anita and murmered, "Ohmygod they're down here, I think they're down here" and she was like, "Holy shit, oh my god I think so too". All around us were security guys, and I recognized a few of the dancers in the show. It was clear that we were not supposed to be down there, it was a security-only restriced area. While Anita was asking about her jacket, I just kept looking down the hall, and trying to inch closer to the door. About a minute later,

NICK CARTER WALKED RIGHT BY ME, and HE LOOKED AT ME

Okay, I know I'm being a complete spazz but seriously, I thought I was going to faint right at that moment. My life could have ended right then and there and I would have died the happiest girl on this earth. I slapped Anita on the arm and shook her, until I could blurt out, "NICK CARTER JUST WALKED BY!!" and Natasha shushed, "I told you not to be screaming!" and I was like, "I WASN'T SCREAMING!!!"

Nick Carter WALKED BY ME. He was within a couple meters of me. He turned his head and looked at me. He acknowledged my presence. Nick Carter knows I exist. Nick Carter is aware that I am alive.

A minute later, Natasha told us the number to call tomorrow to find Anita's jacket, and she escorted us out of the very same exit that the Boys were going out of to get on their bus. Hundreds of girls were outside Gate 9 waiting for the Boys to come out, and Anita, Jacq and I walked through there. Everyone stared at us. They must have wondered, who are they, how did they get in there? We were looking head on into the entrance of the bus, where Nick had just walked on. You have no idea how hard it was to turn right and away from the bus instead of pulling a fast one and leaping up those steps.

Natasha led us to the side of the road and whispered, "I'm not supposed to tell you this, but two of them are still in there, they're coming out in a second, so watch for them". So we did, and screamed, and ran up to the bus as it drove off. I got one last picture of Kevin waving at the front of the bus.

I love Natasha, I love BSB, I love Anita for losing her jacket, I love her for moving up the Row A because I think the fact she said she'd lost her jacket in Row A might have made a difference. Because she was Row A, we were probably taken more seriously, like the hardcore crazy obsessed stalker Backstreet Boys fans we really are.

I feel like I'm totally obsessively in love with Nick Carter it's not even funny. I'm 19 years old, I should be past this phase already. I actually thought I WAS past it. Interesting what one celebrity encounter like that will do to you. I mean, I've been a fan of Backstreet Boys since 1995 so I really am a true fan, I've just never had this close of an encounter before. I thought I was going to die. Right at this moment I feel like screaming my head off. I am so, so happy. Oh my God, he was so gorgeous, he was so perfect. I cannot believe this all just happened to me. Anita and Jacq were so jealous because they didn't see him. But I did, and he saw me too, and AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!

Okay I have to be up in 5 hours to go to school. School isn't important right now. Nothing is important. We were going to stalk them at their hotel afterwards but because we all have school tomorrow morning we couldn't. On the way home, I said, "I don't even care about school, I don't even feel like I'm in school right now", and Anita said, "Yeah. I really just want to stalk the Backstreet Boys for the rest of my life. That's all I wanna do." Seriously, I couldn't have put it any better.

I'm listening to Black and Blue right now and I'm starting to cry. This was the best night of my life, this definitely made my year. When you're such a true fan of someone (or a group) for so very long, it almost becomes part of you. I never knew how important Backstreet Boys were to me until tonight, until I knew every single song they sang and sang along with them, until Brian (my favourite Boy) looked right down at me and smiled, until I was meters away from one of them and it was one of the happiest moments of my life. I wish I had the chance to tell them how amazing they are, how much I love them.

If this is anyone's first time reading my diary, I know I sound like a complete and utter teeny-bopper stalker girl, but really, I'm not...okay, yes I am, Anita and I had plans to stalk on Sunday and we were going to after the show, too. But...it's Backstreet Boys!

I don't think anyone will ever truly understand me unless they are a Backstreet Boys fan like I am. It's just an entirely different universe. It's the best thing in the world, I swear. What's really cool is that now that BSB have been around for so long (8 1/2 years, to be exact), their fans have grown old as well. When I went in '98, it was especially teeny-boppery. But this year, all the girls were around my age. We're the true BSB fans, the ones that grew up loving them. Nothing compares to tonight, nothing.

Given the choice between experiencing that all over again and having Cody back, I'm with Nick Carter on this one.

Okay, really need to try and sleep now...or fantasize...either would do me just fine...

OH MY GOD, this night didn't just happen, did it?

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